This last week has been crazy and full of emotions. I have never really been an emotionally person, at least I didn't think so until about last Friday night and since then I have so much emotion stirring around inside me. I'm happy, excited, anxious, nervous, scared, sad and so many other feelings that I don't know what words to describe them, but I'm feeling all of it. When I stop to think about it, all I to do is cry. Yes cry. I have never cried so much in my life, but ITS A GOOD THING! All of theses feelings are good, yes my life is changing so fast that I just want it to stop but I can't wait for what the future holds. Along with thinking about the future, this week I've also been thinking about what got me to this point. The point where Chase and I first met and started dating and when we each said those special words "I love you" and when we decided we wanted to get married and now here we are 4 days away from being married! All of these events were all leading to Monday March 11, 2013.
Last spring semester I had plans to go and work for Zion Ponderosa as a guide. But I guess the Lord other plans for me because the saturday before finals I crashed on my mountain biking breaking my arm, I was not going to be able to work for Zion with this injury so my only option was to move back to Provo and live at home and basically bum it off my parents until my arm healed. I was so disappointed, I did not want to go back to Provo. But it was for the best and it wasn't all that bad (I do love Provo and all the people there, I promise). So back in Provo, I of course started to go to the single ward. Wahoo! Yes I realize Chase and I are typical single mormons who met at the single ward activities. But I only went to two FHE nights (I only went for the free food people). I had no intensions of looking for a suitor. The first time I noticed Chase and his cousin Cody and didn't really talk to them but I kept my eye them. The second time they came up to my friend Jessie and I and started talking and wanted to hang out. As I walked out to my car they were there and basically yelling across the parking lot, Cody asked for my number and I noticed that Chase pulled out his phone to and put it in. Sometime after that Chase would text me and invite me to go climbing or biking and I would be no you dummy I have a broken arm I can't do any of those things. He also invited me to go see a movie with some friends and I turned him down to go up to my cabin with some other friends. This happened pretty much all summer long.
So one day Chase had called and left a voice mail asking if I would want to go on a group date with him and Cody and their friend, I called him back and I said yes. Finally in the middle of July, after all summer we would have our first date. He picked me up the next day, and I remember being so nervous, I always get nervous for first dates but I was really nervous today, I have never had a face to face conversation with him, he was always so quite. But the whole time on the date we talked, we talked about everything. We didn't really spend much time with anyone else in the group, we were always off by ourselves. For the date we went to the crepe place on state street, then went up to the canyon and Cody and his date and his friend made peach cobble while Chase and I went did our own thing. Honestly the only person I remember on that date besides Chase was Cody, I had no desire to talk to anyone else but Chase. At the end of the date I was smitten, honestly I was so surprised by how well we got a long and I how much I liked him. After that it was about a week and a half before we were able to go on a second date and on that date we had our first kiss and ever since then I haven't been able to stop kissing him since.
After two weeks of dating and hanging out I had to move down to St. George for school again, but Chase came down with me and helped me move in. Seriously he is such a sweetheart but everything was perfect. His family lived down here, so luckily we were able to see each other every weekend. He came down 5 weekends in a row, thats commitment, he must have really liked me to travel that much to see me, but I really liked him too cause I traveled up on some weekends to see him too. Normally long distance relationship you rarely see each other but we were able to see each other every weekend, but don't worry it was still the hardest time of my life. Long distance sucks.
During that time our relationship was getting more serious. I remember the first time Chase said that he loved me. We were hanging out and watching a movie in my jeep. We would have little drive in movies where we would fold down the seats in my jeep and set up a lap top and put pillow and blankets in there and made it all comfy and we would hang out. It was during this that he said he loved me and I the first thing I said was No stop talking, you can't say that. He could not have loved me. We barely knew each other, we had not been dating for that long and we only saw each other on the weekends. After he left that weekend to go back to Provo, I knew I loved him too. That week was I dying to see him and to tell him I loved him too. When I told him the first thing he said was "well I said it first!" Haha best reaction ever. I knew I wanted to marry this kid, but that talk came later.
Just a few pictures of us while dating and traveling back and forth from Provo to St. George and some skype pictures cause we had so many skype dates!
I realize I have just wrote a novel so I will end this post here. I'll share more thoughts and stories later! 4 days people, 4 DAYS!! I cannot wait, I've never been more excited for anything.
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